How TO Become a Player

Apparently, I suck at taking my own advice. What was that "the key to success is resistance" crap? So last night after having an incredible conversation with the Aussie and refusing to let myself fall in love with him (distance preventing), I pull the ultimate act of stupidity. I call Eddie. I'd been feeling pretty bummed about work earlier in the day and thought that he would understand and tell me all of the things that I needed to hear. All I intended was to find good conversation. And when he mentions coming over (to which I ALWAYS reply "no"), I said "yes"!!! It's been nearly 9 months since I let this man in my door and although I've talked to him, I've always managed to resist him. Apparently, I was in no mood to resist! But why didn't I call Aftershock whom I knew would send me over the edge? I've obviously lost all touch with reality here and decided that stupidity is a good replacement. And seriously, just after I'd had great conversation with the Aussie! Someone should write a song about me being a fool.